Dinner at Eight in the Suburbs

I often times am really stoked on things that go on in my life, I do have the occasional feeling of inadequacy. I finally realize I need something substantial in my life. Now I just have to figure out what that is and how to achieve it. Not to mention the whole reminiscence of this time of the year, I will never step foot in a high school class again. I'm still not sure how that feels, but I am, atleast grateful for making it this far unscathed. In other news I'm having band practice at chris palmer's house on saturday, tryin out some second guitar-ing I suppose, we'll see how that goes. Note to self, do cooler things with your life and quit doing nothing.

Waggy

Well this weekend was pretty neat, prom was sorta what I expected and afterball was alot of fun. The show on friday was great, I may have had more fun there actually, but thats how life works out sometimes. I sorta wish my date would've been someone who I could've had a sitcom-esque night with and cuddled with lol, but once again how life works out you know? For now it looks like I'm really just waiting for the next big step in my life, I have no clue what that is, but I'm anticipating it. I still got music going for me, actually thats about it at this exact moment. I have pratice tomorrow and I feel more ready to play a show than I ever have. Thanks to dylan and chase for being the best possible band mates I could ask for. Thats really all there is to say right now, heres to good friends.

I Miss You

This weekend is shaping up to be pretty fun, I have senior picnic tomorrow, then a show hopefully and some sort of after party at my house, then prom on saturday which could go either way at this point. I'm glad I'm pretty much done with all the little shit I had to take care of, I pray it all goes over smooth and that I graduate. Other than that I'm feeling pretty nostalgic, the school years basically over, 12 goddamn years of my life and here we are, the end. I have a ton of cool memories, from school and it'll be weird not being forced to go to it. I remember the time knocked my self out in third grade, and trying to reinvent myself all through middle school. I also regret alot of decisions I've made this far, but at the very least I can look back at it and not be that way now. I'm fairly happy with the person I've become, and I'm glad to not be the weird kid that noone likes now, those days seem like they just happened. Damn life is a pretty cool thing.

Rite of Spring

Ok so, anyone who's been following this blog knows by now that I use blink songs as the titles of my posts. Well today I decided to branch out since, this can't last forever, I'll probably stay around blink music since it appeals to me so much. The thing I have for blink is, it basically describes my life, and has a strong foothold in it. Change has been a big part of my life, whether I wanted it or not, but the one thing that has stayed a constant all these years is blink. They're music has helped me look up when I couldn't feel any worse, and helped me celebrate when my life couldn't get any better. So heres to you blink-182, I'm glad you're back, hope to see you this summer, and will love you Always.

Shut Up

End of the years but a few weeks away, so I pretty much have no idea what is going on. I feel like this day would never ever come, and here it is. Home life is sucking a dick tho, constant arguing and fighting with my mother, being cut off from music for the most part, and watching my future stumble towards me. Its hard not to cut myself off and remain apathetic to deal with the tremendous fear I have of my future. If my life this far, feels this alone, I'm very frightened of the future. It feels like my life up until this point was merely training and attaining skills to deal with this, but how do I apply this to real life? Who the fuck knows, it appears that this is nothing more than a clumsy ritual repeated by teens throughout history. Now its is my turn, this ought to be interesting. Just a thought.

Emo

So life truly is a rollercoaster, you never know how you'll feel next. I as well as many people my age are pretty experienced in taking shit and moving on. Life continues etc. So with all this free time, I really only have one thing to dedicate it to, music, I'll probably begin work on the second manhattan project demo, which will be here whenever its done. Schools almost over then I gotta deal with the (semi) real world, hopefully summer will be decent atleast.